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I miss talking to her each night.
She's had major troubles with university and I imagine she's feeling pretty crap; I got to give her some advice on work stuff (backup plans!) but she's so distant, I really just want to help her. After I failed 50% of my last year of college I spent the next however-long feeling sorry for myself, mostly probably just lonely from missing out on interacting with anyone I'd called my friend, ended up finding a (kinda crappy) job and making that my 'purpose' for the year. I kinda fucking hated last year, I hated being miserable, being a failure. It was crap.
Anyway -- I hope she doesn't feel like that... but kinda expect it. How else is one suppose to feel? Failing is shit. You just have to have someone to help you, to talk to, a friend to smile with.
Whatever. I'm shit. I've tried talking to her a few times but its usually been bad timing - "I'll talk to you later.
" she says; but it is never followed up. Not trying to feel bad for myself, I just wonder why she's so distant. She must b e feeling bad? Makes sense. Damn it.
This is the worst fucking blog ever.
She's had major troubles with university and I imagine she's feeling pretty crap; I got to give her some advice on work stuff (backup plans!) but she's so distant, I really just want to help her. After I failed 50% of my last year of college I spent the next however-long feeling sorry for myself, mostly probably just lonely from missing out on interacting with anyone I'd called my friend, ended up finding a (kinda crappy) job and making that my 'purpose' for the year. I kinda fucking hated last year, I hated being miserable, being a failure. It was crap.
Anyway -- I hope she doesn't feel like that... but kinda expect it. How else is one suppose to feel? Failing is shit. You just have to have someone to help you, to talk to, a friend to smile with.
Whatever. I'm shit. I've tried talking to her a few times but its usually been bad timing - "I'll talk to you later.
" she says; but it is never followed up. Not trying to feel bad for myself, I just wonder why she's so distant. She must b e feeling bad? Makes sense. Damn it.This is the worst fucking blog ever.
