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everything is fucking dumb and i don't want to kill myself i never want to kill myself but whatever i'm so lonely but i can't tell anyone because it always appears i'm just being an attention seeking loser and i am pretty sure i just revealed to my best friend today that i'm depressed but i think she mistook my response to her after she seemed a little apathetic. i guess i shouldn't make jokes about how people feel. i want to apologise but then i'm kind of just... saying sorry for being depressed? i don't fucking know. ugh. i wish she would just talk to me properly, about our emotions. she never does. she avoids it. she'll tell other people but not me. i wonder why. i think she hates me.
i love her. she's my best friend/
i love her. she's my best friend/
