yeah
It'd be perfect if I could know what she's thinking. I just really hope it works out. Just the possibility of her liking me back is fun... I mean, we've been hanging out and talking heaps recently, and its fantastic. She's my best friend. She makes me so frickin happy. I guess that's why I've delayed actually risking asking her out, because for the first time in a while I'm moderately happy and if I fuck this up... Ugh that'd suck. I mean she's a fantastic friend to have, but unrequited love is pretty shit and I'd be pretty gutted for a while; mostly because people have been urging me on to ask her out for a while, encouraging me almost.
I don't know. I just want to be honestly happy. She makes me feel safe. She's one of the few people who get to see me for me. I'm intensely scared she doesn't like me and I'm scared at how I'd feel if I asked and got rejected. I don't want to ruin a friendship because I'd feel sorry for myself, because I couldn't ever separate my feelings whenever I talked to her. I don't want things to take a turn for the worse. She means a lot.
I don't know. I just want to be honestly happy. She makes me feel safe. She's one of the few people who get to see me for me. I'm intensely scared she doesn't like me and I'm scared at how I'd feel if I asked and got rejected. I don't want to ruin a friendship because I'd feel sorry for myself, because I couldn't ever separate my feelings whenever I talked to her. I don't want things to take a turn for the worse. She means a lot.
